He who lies there.

Wow. I can't believe I found my blog!

I forgot my url to this thing. LOL. Anyways, it has been what? Like 2 months since I was last on here? It hasn't been that long.. Well I'm back and it's back to writing for me!

It's odd because I noticed that I usually have the strongest urge to write when I'm emotially distressed. Lots of things are on my mind all the time and I do nothing but smile and take it all in. Maybe because I'm underspoken and have a lot of opinions on things.. opinions which I only share with myself. Now it might sound a bit crazy that I'm always having constant arguments with myself, but that's what honestly happens in my mind about 3/4 of the time.

My birthday is fast approaching and I will have nobody but my fiancee to celebrate my special day with me. My family, friends, and close relatives have all exiled me and I was the cause of all this. No more days well spent with a family. What's a family again? Has anyone not accepted the fact that I am in love with another woman? Why can't anyone just be happy for me? I can never do anything to gain the acceptance and appreciation of my family. They're all too thick-skinned. Some two-faced as well.

So what if it's my 21st birthday next month?

At least she'll be there for me.


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But I spend the holidays alone.

Holiday season is near and where will I be?




Home.


*The lone tree will romance itself while the ham sits there cold
The warm, jolly atmosphere suddenly turns dank and rancid
I, in the background laying on the floor.. alone.


I did this all to myself
It's not my fault I can't cover the expenses
It's not my fault that I can't afford anything
It's not my fault that I'm in love. So overwhelmingy in love
It is my fault, I chose what I wanted to do
And I chose to be in love with you.

Now, if I could
I would choose not to be here waiting for you for three long, hard weeks
Instead, I would be there with you.

I can't be here deprived of family
All alone, and alienated from the only person that I love the most.

The tree and I will slowly wither away
But the star will remain shining on top.

Life is good. *The long-awaited update* (NOT!)

Well, it has been almost 3 months since my last post.

I figured that my loyal posse of nosy people have been wanting to hear from the elusive JR once again.
So, here I am.

I recently recieved a promotion at work becoming a warehouse manager, and moved out from my uncle's house. Along with all this, I took in my girlfriend whom I love dearly. We live in a nice, quiet community, renting out a place from a nice, older couple.

Now life has become more meaningful to me.
Until you realize that there is no such thing as forever, you will begin to see that in reality, life is beautiful. No matter how hard life's got you down. You see, I aim to please, and with that said, I plan to make anyone who wants to fly under my wings with me on a journey they will never forget.

So maybe I'm still young, heck, we all are. And although you're going to sit there on your high chair and think otherwise, just think about how you were when you were a kid. You knew you never wanted to grow up.

"I don't wanna grow up, I'm a Toys 'r' us kid," remember that?

Well, fast foward now, you're in your mid 20's probably now thinking about how your years of youth was spent.

Let's just leave it at that, and let's see if you can find my message in this post.

Until then, deuces! (All the cool kids are doing it <<)

I don't know what to do anymore.

I don't know anymore.

I want to get out of this godforsaken state. Leave it all behind and start anew. But a part of me is telling me to stay. I cannot bear the fact that I must leave everything that I've started here. The friendships and relationships that I have with the people that I see on a day to day basis; something that is unique and different.

A part of me wants to be with my beloved girlfriend. Wait, I mean my entire being wants to be with my girlfriend. I love her so and am reluctant to be without her by my side. We've somehow managed to fuse together. You would have to pry us apart to keep our hands off of each other. This love that we have for each other is young, but it is surely growing, each and every single day.

Ohio state is a joke. $7 minimum wage.

God, I need a new get-rich-quick scheme. Help me land some unimaginable fortune and help my dreams come true.








I have a vast supply of never ending love, for my girlfriend.

sometimes

Love is a powerful thing.
It's overwhelming and I cannot control myself at times.

Sometimes, I look at her and wonder to myself.. how did I end up with someone as lovely as herself.


Hold that thought.

I AM.

I am

Grateful for my wonderful girlfriend who loves me so much.
I am grateful for her being by my side through our ups and downs.
She makes me happy to be alive and well.

I would do anything for her.
To keep her happy always.

=D

is this for real?

i am confused.

wish i could read minds.
wish i knew the intentions of others.
i don't want to get hurt.

Let me tell you about this girl.

The past few weeks have gone by quite fast.
Two adventurous beings who are destined to last.
They had many differences to which they interact,
tried and true, opposites really do attract.

The two have tried once,
the two have tried twice.

To no avail, he decided it was time.

Time to throw away the deceit,
The childish games that were played.
Broken hearts are not easily fixed,
he should have just stayed.

Why had he hurt the one who loved him most?
He simply ignored her as if it were a joke.

Now he finally decided to step up and apologize.
He had asked her to be his girlfriend while looking deep in her eyes.
She gazed at him, smiled, and lovingly said,
"It's great to have us back, together again."

The two embraced, held hands, and smiled.

He promised her love, happiness, and to her heart, no harm.
To prove her his love; third time's the charm.