it's been a minute.

He who lies there.

2009-09-12T12:03:00.000-07:00

Wow. I can't believe I found my blog!

I forgot my url to this thing. LOL. Anyways, it has been what? Like 2 months since I was last on here? It hasn't been that long.. Well I'm back and it's back to writing for me!

It's odd because I noticed that I usually have the strongest urge to write when I'm emotially distressed. Lots of things are on my mind all the time and I do nothing but smile and take it all in. Maybe because I'm underspoken and have a lot of opinions on things.. opinions which I only share with myself. Now it might sound a bit crazy that I'm always having constant arguments with myself, but that's what honestly happens in my mind about 3/4 of the time.

My birthday is fast approaching and I will have nobody but my fiancee to celebrate my special day with me. My family, friends, and close relatives have all exiled me and I was the cause of all this. No more days well spent with a family. What's a family again? Has anyone not accepted the fact that I am in love with another woman? Why can't anyone just be happy for me? I can never do anything to gain the acceptance and appreciation of my family. They're all too thick-skinned. Some two-faced as well.

So what if it's my 21st birthday next month?

At least she'll be there for me.

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But I spend the holidays alone.

Holiday season is near and where will I be?

Home.

*The lone tree will romance itself while the ham sits there cold
The warm, jolly atmosphere suddenly turns dank and rancid
I, in the background laying on the floor.. alone.

I did this all to myself
It's not my fault I can't cover the expenses
It's not my fault that I can't afford anything
It's not my fault that I'm in love. So overwhelmingy in love
It is my fault, I chose what I wanted to do
And I chose to be in love with you.

Now, if I could
I would choose not to be here waiting for you for three long, hard weeks
Instead, I would be there with you.

I can't be here deprived of family
All alone, and alienated from the only person that I love the most.

The tree and I will slowly wither away
But the star will remain shining on top.

Life is good. The long-awaited update (NOT!)

2009-06-27T23:11:00.000-07:00

Well, it has been almost 3 months since my last post.

I figured that my loyal posse of nosy people have been wanting to hear from the elusive JR once again.
So, here I am.

I recently recieved a promotion at work becoming a warehouse manager, and moved out from my uncle's house. Along with all this, I took in my girlfriend whom I love dearly. We live in a nice, quiet community, renting out a place from a nice, older couple.

Now life has become more meaningful to me.
Until you realize that there is no such thing as forever, you will begin to see that in reality, life is beautiful. No matter how hard life's got you down. You see, I aim to please, and with that said, I plan to make anyone who wants to fly under my wings with me on a journey they will never forget.

So maybe I'm still young, heck, we all are. And although you're going to sit there on your high chair and think otherwise, just think about how you were when you were a kid. You knew you never wanted to grow up.

"I don't wanna grow up, I'm a Toys 'r' us kid," remember that?

Well, fast foward now, you're in your mid 20's probably now thinking about how your years of youth was spent.

Let's just leave it at that, and let's see if you can find my message in this post.

Until then, deuces! (All the cool kids are doing it <<)

I don't know what to do anymore.

2009-04-05T23:04:00.001-07:00

I don't know anymore.

I want to get out of this godforsaken state. Leave it all behind and start anew. But a part of me is telling me to stay. I cannot bear the fact that I must leave everything that I've started here. The friendships and relationships that I have with the people that I see on a day to day basis; something that is unique and different.

A part of me wants to be with my beloved girlfriend. Wait, I mean my entire being wants to be with my girlfriend. I love her so and am reluctant to be without her by my side. We've somehow managed to fuse together. You would have to pry us apart to keep our hands off of each other. This love that we have for each other is young, but it is surely growing, each and every single day.

Ohio state is a joke. $7 minimum wage.

God, I need a new get-rich-quick scheme. Help me land some unimaginable fortune and help my dreams come true.

I have a vast supply of never ending love, for my girlfriend.

sometimes

2009-02-16T17:01:00.000-08:00

Love is a powerful thing.
It's overwhelming and I cannot control myself at times.

Sometimes, I look at her and wonder to myself.. how did I end up with someone as lovely as herself.

Hold that thought.

I AM.

2009-02-08T22:54:00.000-08:00

I am

Grateful for my wonderful girlfriend who loves me so much.
I am grateful for her being by my side through our ups and downs.
She makes me happy to be alive and well.

I would do anything for her.
To keep her happy always.

=D

is this for real?

2009-02-03T20:38:00.001-08:00

i am confused.

wish i could read minds.
wish i knew the intentions of others.
i don't want to get hurt.

Let me tell you about this girl.

2009-02-01T08:30:00.000-08:00

The past few weeks have gone by quite fast.
Two adventurous beings who are destined to last.
They had many differences to which they interact,
tried and true, opposites really do attract.

The two have tried once,
the two have tried twice.

To no avail, he decided it was time.

Time to throw away the deceit,
The childish games that were played.
Broken hearts are not easily fixed,
he should have just stayed.

Why had he hurt the one who loved him most?
He simply ignored her as if it were a joke.

Now he finally decided to step up and apologize.
He had asked her to be his girlfriend while looking deep in her eyes.
She gazed at him, smiled, and lovingly said,
"It's great to have us back, together again."

The two embraced, held hands, and smiled.

He promised her love, happiness, and to her heart, no harm.
To prove her his love; third time's the charm.

TCX (Click for full picture)

2009-01-28T16:59:00.001-08:00

who are you, really.

2009-01-24T15:02:00.000-08:00

I know who I am.

Utilize your face.

If movie posters were honest!

2009-01-13T23:14:00.000-08:00

Look before you leap.

2009-01-12T00:23:00.000-08:00

Have you ever wanted to say something to someone?
Something deep and so heart-filled, that it just drives you insane that you just cannot say it?

I have some weight on my chest that I have been carrying.
Stressed out because I just can’t find myself hearing an answer that I do not accept.
Maybe I already know the answer to my question.
Some small talk to myself is therapeutic, right?
Look at me. I’ve already lost my mind.

I would like to come to my senses.
Come to realize that she doesn’t want to be in a relationship with me.
Because it just makes sense.
I’m nothing to her, but her mere friend.

I respect that, I guess. Damn, I’m too selfish.
Now, here I am, wanting more than just her friendship.

I sense that she doesn’t want me.
Why is it that I can see through people?

How would I even know that this is truly what she is thinking?
Who am I fooling? I’m just scared.

Being the nervous wreck that I am,
I should just leap.
Leap into the nonexistent arms that would never break my fall.
Falling to my death:

The truth.

i had to get this out.

2009-01-10T19:33:00.000-08:00

what have i done?
have i gone completely mad?

last year, she loved me.
& it showed, i couldn't accept the fact that she did.
i shamefully wanted more. i wanted someone that i could never, ever be with.
so i lived recklessly, and treated her the same way.

why must i be so blind?
she never hesitated to tell me that she loved me.
she shed tears, at the thought of us being apart.
she came to my doorsteps early in the mornings, not to be greeted with love.
i had become a jerk, and i knew it too.

after our 4 months of hardships, she finally left.
i stood strong. and i was happy.

until it finally hit me, and i realized that i was wrong for what i did.

now, her every move has me captivated.
jealously occurs when she brings up the names of other men.
i'm killing myself inside thinking about what i did.
she didn't deserve to be treated with disrespect.

now, i bow to her every action. infatuated, i may be.

i lied. i'm in love.

my pathetic actions could have been times of laughter, embracing, and love.
so now, i am there for her.

i want to create for myself, a new me.
to be the guy who will undoubtedly be there for his love, whenever.
stand strong, for when she's weak.
and be the savior of falling victim to our society's animals.

it makes me worry to have her be around other men.
maybe it's jealousy.
maybe it's just me being obnoxious.
or maybe, it's just because she's all the care in the world that i have.

although we all have imperfections..

i would love to be the man who can actually try his very best to make his love happy.
let me create myself anew.

would you let me..?

katsuya

2009-01-08T23:53:00.000-08:00

killer traffic tonight heading east on the 134..
push button *plink!* parking structure ticket!
round and round we go up to the 4th floor of the glendale galleria corkscrew
hands cold, rush to the elevator
laugh as we drop down 4 floors
she wants to go to urban outfitters but we hit up H&M instead
up the stairs, and back down again
to Forever 21 we go
it's cold out, "I wish I had a scarf", she says
i wrap my arm around her neck
VOILA! instant scarf! am i clever or what..?
she wants haagan daaz
it's too cold
urban outfitters is closed.
it's 10:20PM
we pass by katsuya
what awesome stairs they have!
they spiral upwards into a dimly lit room
let's go in and have a light snack
we talk and we talk
her eyes, i cannot look away from
later, we leave
thank you, spiral staircase, you were the selling point!
down the rabbit hole we go, as alice did in wonderland
quick stamp of the time card *plink*
back into car we go
cruising at comfortable speeds, west on the 134
101 we hit
valley circle we lit up
we picked up
and left
a warm hug
a kiss on the head
and a reluctant goodbye
lights off, she walks into the darkness
i drive off and smile
it's been only 30 minutes but i already miss you

My Everything

2008-12-23T22:46:00.000-08:00

These lyrics are from an aspiring singer on YouTube, Cathy Nguyen.

Girl there's no one that gets me the way that you do
I just can't explain it there's something bout you
That gets my emotions all tangled inside
No matter how I tryI just cannot hide
What I feel when you simply walk past my way
When you smile it shines bright and you make my day
I sit here all alone thinking about you day and night
Girl to me it feels so right

I just want you close
Coz you make me smile
I just cannot get you off my mind
With each kissYou blow me away
And without you I think I'd go crazy
For your love I would do anything
Coz to me... you are my everything

Boy there's no one that gets me the way that you could
I just can't explain it there's something you do
The stars shine much brighter when I'm with you
And when you kiss my lipsI feel so brand new
Boy you always know when I'm feeling down
And you know how to turn my frown upside down
All the cute things you do simply tickle my heart
Boy we'll never be apart

I just want you close
Coz you make me smileI just cannot get you off my mind
With each kissYou blow me away
And without you I think I'd go crazy
For your love I would do anything
Coz to me... you are my everything

All my dreams have come true when you walked in my life
It seems so unreal I'm so glad that you're mine
I'm so glad to be yours it's too good to be true
But I know this is real and that I love you

I just want you close
Coz you make me smile
I just cannot get you off my mind
With each kiss
You blow me away
And without you I think I'd go crazy
For your love I would do anything
Coz to me... you are my everything

Hooray.

2008-12-18T21:08:00.000-08:00

No rain today!

Will update this post later.

hmm.. Going to the chiropractor again tomorrow at 10 am (:

I'm Yours.

2008-12-17T20:29:00.000-08:00

This song is nice (:

8:30 appointment

2008-12-17T17:13:00.000-08:00

So today, I woke up at 7:00am, ready for my appointment with the chiropractor.

Dr. Kevin was his name.
I was reffered to him by both my boss, and Linda.

So he ran a couple tests on me. Asked me a few questions, tested me for sensation, checked my muscles (oh yeah, LOL), and pinpointed the source of pain.

He then led me into the room where he administers the physical therapy. Next thing you know, he's rubbing down my neck, and then flicks in acupuncture needles! I HATE NEEDLES! But the good thing was that I did not feel a thing! I was laying on my side for the next half hour listening to the calm ambience.

Next, he did some deep tissue massage which felt so damn good. If he were a woman, most likely I'd be turned on.
He then made me relax my neck, and proceded to crack it. Then came my back.

After that, he applied an ice pack to my neck and I laid there for another 10 minutes. The whole procedure felt so good. This would be my ideal morning.

Then I head off for work. The rest of the day went well (:

It hurts!

2008-12-16T12:28:00.000-08:00

My damn neck still hurts.

I'll update this post later.

Update:
I never got around to updating this post. Bleh!

Kinky.

2008-12-15T21:47:00.000-08:00

Kinky? Haha, no.. not exactly what you think. Today started off with me waking up.. cold. Anyways, as I rose up from bed, I cracked my neck in such a way that I kinked it? Never have I done that before.. So I then proceeded to take care of the usual hygiene.. and head to work.

What a pain in the neck that was. Literally.

You may not notice it, but upon entering a vehicle, your body automatically tells your head to tilt outwards to avoid hitting your head on the car's frame. I couldn't tilt my head to the left, as it was painful. I'm a careful driver, and I'm very aware of my surroundings when I drive. So looking over my shoulder, especially to my left, was a totally unbearable, if not, painful experience. Thank goodness my work is less than a mile away from home.

I just want to get this out there: I HATE THE RAIN!
Okay.. I'm done >:D

So anyways, at work.. I proceded to do my usual routine: box stuff, tape stuff, fix stuff, measure stuff, organize stuff, restock stuff, lift stuff and tape some more stuff. To many, it may sound boring, but I love what I do!

After work, I did a bit of Christmas shopping.. I am the king of procrastination.

Then afterwards, I headed off to class for Agasse's final. Can't wait to see my results, I think I did great!

....although my neck still hurts.

I can't sleep.. car audio stuff for sale!

2008-12-15T00:48:00.000-08:00

BUY MY STUFF!

I have my Pioneer DEH-P5900iB for sale. I had owned it for roughly 10-11 months, awesome headunit. I'm looking to get $40 obo for it. Was around $180 brand new. Comes with remote. (& If you have a Yaris, I'll toss in my harness for free, so you can hook it up yourself :D)

Also up for sale is my Bazooka enclosure with two 10" subs. The subs work great, and the box is flawless. The only downside is that the amp is bad. It's easily replaced with any other 300 watt amp of your choice. Looking to get $40 obo for this as well. This package was nearly $200 brand new.

This is a great sub enclosure with two awesome subs, just pop in a new amp and you're good to go!

I've been sitting here..

2008-12-14T19:06:00.000-08:00

..and I cannot figure out how to edit my damn blog!

Nevermind.. I found out! LOL. If the tiny pencil at the bottom right side of a post isn't obvious enough..

Project Vitz.

2008-12-14T15:47:00.000-08:00

I guess I'd better christen my new blog by talking about one of my projects: Project Vitz.

*Project Vitz will be undergoing some tranformation over time, so check here for updates from time to time (:

Where to begin?

I've owned this car for over a year now, as a birthday gift. Since then, I have been putting a lot of effort into it, by making it uniquely my own, and trying to stand out from the other Yaris. She'll never be finished.

Many of you may not agree with me, or anyone modifying an economy car. But there is a market for these awesome cars. What's that? You heard me right..an economy car. This car gets 30MPG on the street and 35MPG highway. The Yaris is totally capable, and in fact, is seen tracked at some auto events.

http://www.yarisworld.com/ is a great community for all to join and find out more about this car.

I am currently employed by Garm Beall, a business owner and car enthusiast. He owns http://www.rainchains.com/, which is the company I work for, half of http://www.g2autosports.com/, and http://www.microimageonline.com/. I am proud to have my car sponsored by him, and have our decals placed on my car. He is also the founder of the modern day, micro club: Micro Image. His social networking site can be visited here: http://www.microimage.ning.com/.

Here is his turbo'd Yaris, currently pulling 183WHP on the stock motor. He has a fully built 1NZ-FE ready for transplanting, and with that said, he's looking to push his car to it's limit.

Makes you want to get a Yaris now, doesn't it?

Anyways, I just completely whored my company, sponsor, and awesome boss. Back on topic.

After having received the car, and slapping on my muffler and rims I decided that I would go for the "JDM" look. I know.. I know, I said I was trying to be unique. You're probably thinking, How is trying to look like your Japanese counter-part unique? And aren't others doing that too? I didn't say that was all I was going for, I'd be doing as much as I can to stand apart from the usual JDM. The only thing that holds me back is money, which is something I can't be spending entirely on my car as I need food, clothes, and other necessities (ie: insurance, gas, school, girls.. just kidding on the last part :p) So with that said, my car will be built piece by piece, over a period of time. Along the way, I will make decisions that many will find tasteful, or not. That's how it's come to be!

Frustration with the stock headunit.

Damn false advertising.. Said it'll play mp3s.. Well it does to some level, then it decides it wants to keep your CD! This was one of the many problems Yaris owners were having with their vehicles. People would pop in their mp3 filled CD in this player and soon it would throw an error, or worse.. hold your CD hostage. I decided that I would bring my car in to have the headunit replaced, thinking that mine was defective.. turns out, that after a few days or so, the problematic CD player's newer unit was a problem child as well. This problem was easily fixed by having a simple Pioneer (DEH-P5900iB) headunit installed. Had it for over 10 months, with no problem whatsoever :D

And then, came Black Friday. I scored a killer deal on a 7" Panasonic headunit (CQ-VW100U). Goodbye Pioneer!

The moon rover look.. Begone!

If you've ever seen a stock Yaris, which is like.. everywhere lol, you'd probably agree.. The damn poor thing looks like a moon rover! I mean, look at it! It sits too damn high!! I would take pictures at angles to fool the eye that there wasn't that much wheel well.. There was enough space to freely stick your entire fist in that wheel well.. so unsexy.

Before I even hit 4k miles on my car, I had my car dropped on TRD Sportivos & Tanabe DF210s. Also installed was my TRD rear sway bar to stiffen up the rear.

Here she is recieving the new goodies :D

All done!

The car handled so much better afterwards. Also, I don't get tossed around on the freeways anymore. The gusts of wind from bigger cars and whatnot would totally manipulate the movement of my car. Not anymore!

Other modifications.

NST SKK
Upon sponsorship by G2AutoSports, I recieved an NST SSK. NonStopTuning's short shift kit was installed in the engine bay in less than 5 minutes by myself. It makes going through the gears so much fun!

Clifford 12.5X
I didn't think Toyota's keyless entry would cut it for me. So while employed at Fry's Electronics, I took advantage of my employee discount and bought the Clifford 12.5X security system. Half a mile range, and notifies you of any break-ins, disturbances with the vehicle, and allows you to check if you actually locked your car via lighted, on-screen display.

300mm Clifford rearview mirror
Think oversized rearview mirrors are for old folks? Well, these are actually cool! Allows you to view the whole rear window with ease. Mine has a distinct blue tint :D

AutoMeter Cobalt Tachometer
Sad to say, the Yaris doesn't come with a built-in tachometer. So I purchased this aftermarket tachometer to assist me in seeing my RPM. It may come off as ricey to you, but I like it. Don't think I cannot drive without seeing my RPM, I just bought this because it would be nice to have. A member from YarisWorld, Jkuchta, had done the installation for me. What a great guy!

Razo 400G CF weighted knob
It's a really nice weighted knob. It helps to get a weighted knob, it makes your shift throws more precise and reduces the chance of misshifts.

RedLineGoods shift boot
Nothing special, just a leather shift boot which I've ordered from http://www.redlinegoods.com/. The Yaris came with a disgusting rubber boot that would get all sorts of junk stuck in the crevices.

Sparco Speed, Sparco 4pt harness & Weapon*R seat bracket
After I removed my rear seat to reduce weight and make room for my future audio equipment, I decided it was time to replace my front seats. I ended up purchasing just one racing seat, as the passenger airbag would not function properly anymore if I removed that seat. So I settled on purchasing a simple bucket seat. I always sit in an upright position; makes you more aware of your surroundings and allows for proper posture. I paired the seat with a Weapon*R seat bracket, which required a bit of modification to make the seat work properly with the bracket. My Sparco 4pt harness now awaits a harness bar for proper use.

Carbon Effects carbon fiber hood
Again, with the weight reduction.. Although I honestly did it for looks (: This hood was straight off my boss' car. I've been in love with it's glossy weave ever since.

JDM rebadge
In order to confuse people of my car's make, I had replaced all factory badges (except the Toyota emblem in the rear) Just kidding, well maybe.. But anyways, the Yaris is Japan is known as the Vitz, sporting a Netz badge in the front and the Toyota emblem in the rear accompanied by a Vitz logo in the upper left portion of the trunk.

Wheels & tires
Currently sporting 15" Konig Reasons wrapped with 205/55 BFGoodrich Traction T/A. I'll be purchasing new wheels soon!

Clazzio Leather seat covers
My boss had worked a deal with Clazzio, to make seat covers for the Yaris. I am the first Yaris to have Clazzio seat covers installed. Sadly, I only have the passenger seat covered in leather goodness, as I have removed the rear seats, and replaced my driver's seat for a racing seat.

More to come!

Most recent pictures of my car

After so long, I'm back again.

2008-12-14T15:08:00.000-08:00

Looks like I've picked up blogging again. Check out what happens next.